How long does it take for you to let go of a person whom you always knew but doesn’t know you now and won’t care about you anyway? All day and all night, you keep thinking of that one person. That person whom you used to share your happiness with, your sorrows and pain, that person you used to share your life with, that one person you are addicted to. It would be too easy if it were just drugs and booze and cigarettes. I think the hardest part of kicking a habit is wanting to kick it. We get addicted for a reason. Often, too often, things that start out as just a normal part of your life at some point cross the line to obsessive, compulsive, out of control. It’s the high we’re chasing, the person that makes everything else fade away.
You pretend not to care, you pretend you are fine, but deep inside you’re losing it
all. You desperately want the old times back. Right back when you started, when all is good and nothing was wrong. Whatever happened, it usually and always happens for a reason. We may not know it right now but hopefully someday, we will learn that walking away and leaving that person behind was the right thing to do.
People come and people go. It’s human nature to care and go after the person whom we loved even if that person cannot love us back the way we want them to. Sometimes, you will even think how numb they can get to ignore you and not even talk to you when you’ve done all you can to patch things up.
I usually don’t go around chasing people. There are so many of them out there anyway. But if there’s a slightest chance that that person still cares, I’m gonna take my chance and stay. But why do we keep on holding on even if we already know that not even a slightest chance exists?
People have scars. In all sorts of unexpected places. Like secret roadmaps of their personal histories. Diagrams of all their old wounds. Most of our wounds heal, leaving nothing behind but a scar. But some of them don’t. Some wounds we carry with us everywhere and though the cut’s long gone, the pain still lingers.
Too often, the thing you want most is the one thing you can’t have. Just the same, the person that we desire to love is never going to love us back. Desire leaves us heartbroken, it wears us out. Desire can wreck your life. And as tough as wanting something can be, the people who suffer the most are those who don’t know what they want.
The thing about addiction is it never ends well, because eventually, whatever it is that was getting us high stops feeling good and starts to hurt. Still, they say you don’t kick the habit until you hit rock bottom, but how do you know when you’re there? Because no matter how badly a thing is hurting us, sometimes letting it go hurts even worse.
At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, it’s usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we’ve chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them. The people that are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need.
this is my favorite of all Mark’s blog. I love it!
Taken from markanthonymonzon
May nabasa akong article sa Yahoo news about lucky pennies. Some coins here are worth $1000. I looked up on ebay kung magkano ang mga gold coins sa market.
1863 Spanish-Philippine 2 peso gold coin, to my dissappointment $10 dollars lang ang value nya. The 5k plus gold coin was a 4 peso, sayang 2 peso lang kasi. Ba’t hindi kaya naisipan ng lola kong mag-ipon ng maraming barya nung panahon nila di sana marami na kaming gold coin ngayon. Hehe. Peace lola
